the best compliment i have recieved

'fake tryein to be somthin yur not. a wannrbe of mk olsen'

it took me a while to understand what this despicable attempt at the english language was, written in my myspace truth box. then i realised, whoever you are, you may have just attempted to insult me, but it couldn't have been a bigger compliment if you'd have tried. if someone looks at my photographs and think's im a wannabe mary kate olsen, then i must look a little like her,for someone to think about her when they see me therefore my dream is slowly coming together, i'm not a wannabe mary kate olsen, well actually i wouldn't mind being her, i wouldn't mind at all - but i do rather like being myself. i just think she's the most beautiful girl i have ever seen in my life, and for someone to say that is a major compliment.

thomas marriott

someone told me tonight that this was one of the best blogs he'd ever read, i was intrigued because i never meant for it to be interesting, i guess i just like to get things out of my head. if i didn't it'd probably just all build up and my head would explode. after thomas telling me this i thought about it, and i realised what an amazing compliment, someone actually cares about what i think. then we got onto the subject of harry potter and i just thought in my head, oh jeeez, you've got yourself in trouble now, getting me talking about harry, i'll never stop! i read the last one until i'd finished it last night probably for about 4 hours? i can never put it down. although i've read it about 6 times i still feel like i don't know whats coming. and that line, what is it oh;

'"you actually are joking perce...i don't think i've heard you joke since you were-'

and then i feel the tears welling into my eyes, i must have re-read this sentence 20 times each time i've read the book, but it still brings me to tears, Fred gone. so now we've established i'm a bit of a geek with nothing but harry potter in her life, glad we cleared that up.

may angels lead you in

it's my dada's birthday today - i went to visit his grave and put so many flowers on and it looked so nice, i was proud. i sat there for over 4 hours, just talking to him, telling him how i've been and how much i miss him. i actually could have sat there forever if a little old lady didn't come up to me and offer to take me for a cup of tea. she could tell i was upset and told me she was visiting her son who had died and after hours of talking about them, we found out that my dad and her son had been friends when they were little boys.

she made my day, and we're going for lunch this weekend.

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wish list;

1. a boy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. some ££

3. studio in paris.

4. red or dirtier blonde hair?

5. size double zero !

6. some whack parties.

7. summer, a real summer.

8. harry potter 6 @cinema

9. my pa

10. a new wardrobe

make me complete

i think, honestly, my life will only ever be complete if i have him. & yes okay, everyone wants him, but i am determined and he will be mine, call him what you want - edward cullen, cedric diggory, robert pattinson but he is mine. imagine waking up every morning to see that face. any girl (and probably most men) would be the happiest in the universe.

oh my, i cannot even look at the photograph on the right without getting a bit flushed and getting goosebumps across my arms. looking at my arms, you can tell its winter. i know they're ghostly white, but i don't understand why girls have a permanant fake tan all through winter, because it's blatently fake. well unless you've been on holiday, which it's most doubtful. or if you have then take me next time please, even though i've just had a slight dig at you, but i guess i wouldnt want to go on holiday with girls who permanantly wear orange fake tan. or maybe i would, lets stop being small minded. but in winter i like ghostly skin and rosy cheeks, and big chunky knits. looks like i'll look like this throughout the summer too, as i'm doubtful to a 30 degree summer.

cassie&effy

i have made an incredible friend this week, yes i've known her ages. but we haven't been good friends, and now i couldn't wish for anyone better. thankyou for being there when i've needed you the most. xx xxx x xxx x x xxx

asleep, whilst i'm awake.

oh my, i'm so so tired all of the time. i think i'll have to go to the doctors soon. maybe it's my hectic lifestyle, ok maybe not. i'll figure something out. sometimes i'll just be sitting there, and my friends will just be like megan? megan!? i guess i might aswell have just been asleep, it's strange. or maybe my friends just bore me to death - no of course not.

i think i'll go out tonight, i have a sickening amount of work to do, but which would you choose? think i'll choose to have fun, go out, drink excessive amounts of alcohol, dance dirty with my best friend florence, maybe take some light drugs, and have casual sex - ok so now i sound like someone of the television programme 'skins' eugh.

any help would be well appreciated; my skins night out/or watching harry potter and having a take away with my ma

xx x xxxx x x xxxx xxx

me without you

i saw this film tonight 'me without you' and it was incredible, just a little indie english film with michelle williams and anna friel. it reminded me of me and my best friends and how i've grown up being so thankful for the people who care. the ones who actually care. i like people who don't care what others think, and i have to admit for most of my teenage life i did, but i've had a sudden realisation that who gives a fuck? if people like me for who i am, then they're the people who mean the most. life is what you and your friends make it and i'm beginning to have this mindset. who wants fake, two-faced friends who only care about being there for the good times, laughing and parties. i want real friends who are there for ALL of the time, the good and the bad. because as much as i wish it could be, life isn't all sunshine and rainbows, there are a lot of dark times too, and so far i've dealt with them, and, with the help of my real friends, i will continue to.

so here i go, on a new adventure. come with me?

oh my, oh my

cracking bones

sometimes i wake up, having dreams about my pa, and never know if they're real or not, do you know what i mean? and i'm usually at one of two extremes, unbelievably hot, or deathly cold. it scares me a bit, well a lot actually, because i feel like i was so close to kissing him and having him back, and then i realise and then i feel so far away from him. more than ever. imagine if for one day i could have him back, i don't actually know what i'd do, because i feel like i barely know him anymore. i always think i'd question him on things to me that i need to be answered, but in my head i know if it did happen i'd probably just sit and stare at him, inable to believe he's there, cracking my bones or biting my nails, like i do when i'm nervous.

who knows

luna lovegood

i often find myself doing things you would expect 'loony lovegood' to do. if you haven't read harry potter then first of all you're a complete loser, and second of all you probably lead a more exciting life than i do. well no, actually i'm joking, i just choose to read it because it makes me complete. i always used to think 'jesus what is this world actually coming to, people obsessed with wizards and wands' but then i was bored on the train home, and decided to give it a try, not going into it with a very open mind and thinking it would be the worst read of my life. oh, how wrong i was. those who have read it, will understand how your mind sort of, mm, goes into their world, and i guess it makes me feel like i can get away from my own life, as i feel when i read a lot of books.

but anyway, back to luna. isn't she incredible! i often feel like noone understands me and i'm in my own little world. a bit like cassie from skins maybe? but thats another matter. well anyway, she may be a bit 'loony' but who isn't, and if they're not then they're simply just boring.

lykke li. such an inspiration to me, and if you don't know who she is then you're missing out, honestly. she's a swedish indie singer, and she's quite extraordinary. listen to her songs ; 'dance dance dance, little bit, breaking it up, i'm good, i'm good, and tonight' and i promise you will be instantly hooked.